Dear God

Dear God

     I know i don’t talk to you a lot, but I don’t know where else to go right now. I messed up, really bad. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know what made me make the mistake, even knowing it was wrong. I knew it could mess up everything. I guess I’m just looking for guidance right now. I can’t do anything, I can’t eat, I can’t think, I can’t smile, I can’t even be myself without her. I feel like a big pile of nothing right now. I knew if the opportunity was in front of me, I would be ten times the man I was, treat her better than she deserves, and not mess it up. I know she deserves a better guy, but letting her go is going to be the most difficult task I’ve ever faced. I know I don’t deserve another chance, but i don’t know what to do.. Please help